Feeling is sucks

If having a feeling for you is this hard and painful, maybe I should give it up.

January 16th

When I need sweetness in my life, this morning you gave me sweets literally:)
Couldn't stop smiling like a fool.

Words of this week

"ケイシャのため、ホームランしてあげるよ〜"
きゃああああ（≧∇≦）

Envy

I know that I'm a person who is easy to get envy. I have known this fact since I was a kid.
It's killing me coz sometimes the envy is so overwhelming that makes me feel like I'm such a bad person who can't be happy for others.
Well, I put my hats off to somebody who really truly can be happy for others happiness.
Coz seriously, I find it is so damn hard to do.
I believe that someone's happiness is built by other's tears.
And for that person who's actually crying inside but still be able to sincerely be happy with others happiness, man, I don't think I can do it.
Believe me I don't wanna be an envious person.
I wanna be a grateful person.
I guess one reason why I become easily envy is because I look up too high .
I expect greatness from me.
Well, to be honest, I'm not even this near with great.
I'm a dull ordinary person.
That's why I shouldn't expect that much.
Less expect for yourself.
Maybe it will help me to be a less envious person.

Last remaining days as college student

Some people start posting in the social media about how we should live our last days in college by creating good memories. Well believe me, I want. But the thing is,  recently my life is empty kinda full of disappointments to be exact. A lot of times I wanna just scream, screw u world! Screw my life!