The Unsent Letter

How do you thank someone who is turning you from crayon to perfume?

It isn't easy but I'll try.... 
-Quoted from "To Sir With Love"-

The thing I do not want to do the most:

is to make you sad.

is to embarrass you.

is to bring you down.

The thing I do want to do the most:

is to make you happy.

is to make you proud.

is to lighten your burden.

Nevertheless, a lot of times, I do feel like:

I am the stupidest person,

I am useless,

I am a coward,

because

I didn't manage my time well,

I didn't make us of the opportunities that were coming to me,

I didn't try harder,

I didn't maximize my ability,

I did nothing.

Most of time:

I was very lonely,

I feel like I do have nobody,

I feel like everyone hates me,

I feel like nobody cares me,

I feel like I have shouted out loud, but no one notices me.

Nonetheheless,

You brighten my stupid-narrow mind,

You open my perspective,

You give a-never-ending encouragement whenever I need it the most,

You support me in every thing that I do,

You always be there whenever I need it,

You raise me up when I am down,

You give me your prayer when I ask you for it,

And you keep reminding me of how proud you are for having me.

So yes,

I want to be a better person each day for you.

Thank you mom for everything.

Even though words can't describe how grateful and thankful I am, I know you will understand.

I love you the most.

AP ハウス１、E 523
別府市、大分県
日本
２０１１年１月３１日