Friday, November 2, 2012

lucky number 8ight

Number Eight People are elegant and highly accomplished in the arts. They seem to be, at first glance, better off than those with other numbers. Number Eight People are often shy, pessimistic, and puzzled about life. They are usually deeply religious, yet timid by nature. Sometimes clumsy in speech, they are always passionate about what they do and what they believe in. Number Eight People never have to worry about having the best in life for their abilities make money for them, and they are able to enjoy the creature comforts that they like. Number Eight People are wise, gentle, and compassionate. Except for the knack of always getting off on the wrong foot with people, Number Eight People can be charming company. Your are elegant and artistic but the first to complain about things. Put aside your pessimism and worry and try to be less dependent on material comforts. You would be best as an actor, gardener, or beachcomber. Number Eight People are good Samaritans. They are gentle mannered and on the shy side. Being very sincere they are easily taken by a sob story. Number Eight People are compassionate, understanding of others' faults, and quick to forgive.


Number Eight People like to set their own hours and will not tolerate too much discipline. They are also very offended if they are criticized. They cannot work well under pressure and must be allowed to do things at their own speed. Number Eight People need somebody to discipline them, though, in order to utilize their talents. They usually find someone to look after and care for them.
Good fortune smiles upon Number Eight People. They benefit from wills and inheritances. Even in the roughest of times, Number Eight People always acquire the basic needs. Number Eight People get their own way without force or violence. They have that passive endurance that drives you mad. Eventually they wear you down with their pleas. You just can't break them!
Number Eight People never come right out and discuss what's bothering them. You pry it out of them bit by bit. When all else fails, yell at them, and bang things around. They should be impressed and might unfold all their secret woes; then, you can clear the air. Number Eight People are close to their family. They never forget anyone's birthday, and you had better not forget theirs! Number Eight People worry, too. They want others to cheer them up and tell them everything will be okay.
Number Eight People overspend and should avoid dealing with money. They find it hard to be practical and would love a life of luxury and ease. Ugly things will depress Number Eight People. They hate to displease anyone especially their loved ones. They will edge around an issue rather than take a firm stand. Difficulties are a delicate issue with Number Eight People. They are too sensitive and often overreact. They have to be reassured often.
Romance is a part of Number Eight People. Moonlight and roses, soft music and candlelight will get them every time. They tend to view the world through rose-colored glasses. Number Eight People do not usually have to work hard. Good things just happen naturally. They need bright, airy surroundings and excel in creative fields. Appreciation of their talents make Number Eight People glow, and with encouragement, they can go far in life.

Life Path 4
The Life Path 4 suggests that you entered this plane with a natural genius for planning, fixing, building, and somehow, with practical application and cerebral excellence, making things work. You are one of the most trustworthy, practical, and down-to-earth of individuals; the cornerstone members of society. Indeed, as a Life Path 4, you are a builder of society. The cream of the crop in this Life Path can be a master builder in society. if you are among these highly talented people, you have an idealistic nature which is grounded in practical terms, allowing you to conceive grandiose, far-reaching schemes and carry them through to the end. If you desire and are willing to work for it, you can achieve enormous success, prestige, and fame. Obviously, everyone with a 4 Life Path does not become famous.
All with this Life Path have the ability to take orders and to carry them out with dedication and perseverance and many 4s live and work happily in this context. But so often, the 4 Life Path is the entrepreneur and manager in the community. In either role, you always demand as much from yourself as you do from others, and sometimes a lot more.
You have the kind of will power that is often mistaken for sheer stubbornness. You don't think of yourself as dogged, but your honest beliefs and that ever direct speech makes you come across as completely unremitting. Once a decision is made, it will be followed through to the conclusion, right, wrong, or indifferent. You are very set in your ways and determined to handle things the way you are so certain that they should be handled. Your tenacity of purpose and ability to get the job done borders on obsession. You are a wonderful manager with a great sense of how to get the job done.
You are an excellent organizer and planner because of your innate ability to view things in a very common sense and practical way. This stems from a strong desire to be a perfectionist in your labor. Planning is necessary to avoid errors. It's very likely that a 4 Life Path person invented the to-do list, because it is the rare Life Path 4 who doesn't have one by her side at all times. Your life is programed in an orderly fashion permitting you to catalog and manage the flow of ideas and activities that fill your day. Indeed, you seem to function best when you are under the gun and facing a tough set of problems.
Loyal and devoted, you make the best of your marriage, and you are always the good provider. Friends may be few in number, but you are very close to them and once friendships are made, they often last a lifetime.
The number 4 is solidly associated with the element of earth from which it gains its strength and utter sense of reality. You are one of the most dependable people you know. If patience and determination can ever win, you are sure to achieve great success in life. Often, you are called on to take care of others; to finish what they have started. It may not seem fair and probably isn't, but it may be the key to your accomplishment and reputation.
The negative side of the 4 can prove dogmatic to an excess, narrow-minded, and repressive. A lot of skin-deep people turn you off, and you lack the tact to keep your feelings from being totally clear to all around. Additionally, the negative 4 has a bad tendency to get caught up in the daily routine of affairs, missing the big picture and major opportunities that come along once in a while.

wow!

Keisha=
A classy girl/ woman. Smart. Intelligent. Loves to learn. Loves nature. Organized. Fun. Somewhat flirty. Beautiful smile. Nice skin tone. Cleans daily. Loves to make people smile and laugh. Sometimes instigates. Loves hard. Heart of gold. Loves to shop esp. for shoes. Spoiled. Occasionally nags. Has lazy days. Loves a hard working man that handles his business. Will put her religion to the side. Bi-polar at times. Loves daiquiris. Sexy in her own unique way.

xxxx
The most amazing, gorgeous and sweetest guy you will ever ever meet. Honestly, this person is one of a kind. You will never be blessed with anyone else as amazing than him. He is the most perfect person. He's got a heart of gold and deserves to be treated with respect, love and care. He might find it difficult to open up because of terrible past experiences or because he fears judgement but he has to know he is simply wonderful, magical and he can share his worries with you and that you are always there for him, that you don't judge that you see him and love him for the amazing human being he is. He loves to express himself through creative forms and he excels in all of them. He's a dream come true you in every way and the most stunning person in the world. And you'll fall in with him more and more each day.
Xxxx is the type of guy who comes by your life only once... you will never meet another like him. He's the most amazing person and through thick and thin he will be there for you, and you there for him, what may come <3 div="div">
Xxxx is sweet, romantic funny, considerate, caring and supportive. He is a one of a kind, and is beyond perfect for that one LUCKY girl. He helps her with anything, and can always make her happy. He makes her believe in herself when no one else can help. Sometimes he can be weird and oh so stubborn, but thats what makes him so special. xxxx has the most awesomerest fails, and always knows how to make people smile. Just by looking at him, that one lucky girl will get the biggest smile on her face. What many dont know is that he has the most sexiest singing voice that will make you feel like youre in Asian Heaven. He is every girl's ideal guy. That one lucky girl will be the most happiest person on earth.

please God, let me meet this person! somehow, somewhere. 

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

I work and I earn it

Isn't it is parents' obligation to pay their children school fees?
At least until they graduate from university and have a real job in the society.

If you don't want to pay for the tickets, I've told you I will use my money that I earn from working 11 hours a day or from scholarship that I got. 
Last year, I got 48.000 yen/ month for a year which means the total is around 500.000 yen something. 
My school fee is around 300.000 yen/year, so even if I used that money to pay my school fee, the rest 200.000 yen could be used to buy the free pass (around 90.000 yen), and the rest for my trip to osaka last year. 
This year, I already got 180.00 yen for 6 months. With the money that I got from 3 part time jobs that Im doing, I may cover the expense for free pas and monthly expense. So basically, I can live without your money. So, that's it? You wanna stop doing your obligation just because I'm working my ass off day by day, unlike my brother, whom I respect very much for his decision not to have a part time job, and my other cousins, whom I believe never had like working 11 hours a day to earn money when they still in university. 

I work my ass off day by day to earn money, surely to minimize the burden of you guys. But there's only 1 thing that I want the most. Going home once in a year. Told ya that I will use my money if you are not willing to buy me ticket. But why do you still disagree?

I worked pretty much, so for damn sure I earn and own the money. And I can use it for whatever I want.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

see-meet-get along-good bye

One thing in life that will happen to us always

"People come, people go-they‟ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past.” -Nicholas Sparks-The Rescue-

Monday, August 6, 2012

bye you


"I wish I had never met you. Then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there." -Good Will Hunting (1997)


Never will I realize that I will experience this kind of karma for this cheesy quote ->Smiling is the best make up girls can wear.
I know that on each person's happiness comes with other's sadness. But still when you experience the real thing, it surely makes you freakin miserable. Is it because of real feeling or mere envy, I don't know. 

Maybe the thing that hurts me the most is because she gets it all the things that I want. And you are included in that. If somehow you are with the other girl, I think it will be less painful. Maybe.

Guess I just have to suck it up, live with it, and try to move on.

I believe that He makes all things beautiful in His time.

So, bye, dear you.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

on my way to believe it

"Sometimes when you least expect it.. Love happens." -Love Happens (2009)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

need more than just luck for this

i hope that somehow, somewhere i can meet you and get to know you, even though it's nearly impossible, but it is a small world and we never know when our luck will come rite?

Thursday, July 5, 2012

bad day


I felt like recently I have made hundreds stupid mistakes. Like I did all wrong. 
On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's time to start living in the present.
Letting go of the past is not easy, especially if you have wounds that have never properly healed. But, the past is past and living there may be preventing you from fully experiencing the present. Likewise fear of what may be looming around the corner can also prevent you from fully enjoying the present. Live in the moment and look forward to eternity with God, now that's a great present.

Monday, July 2, 2012

role in life


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are important.
You have a role to play in this universe, even if you do not know it yet. Without you, this divine clockwork would not be the same. So look after yourself. There is a reason for your existence.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Through the storm there is always a rainbow


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can find meaning in the storm.
At times everyone goes through trials and tribulations. Seek out someone else in a similar situation and give them an encouragement or just a hug. Find meaning in the midst of your struggles by helping another in similar straits.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

keep waiting for this one


On this day of your life, , we believe God wants you to know ... that you will blossom.
A flower starts deep under the dirt and has to fight against gravity in the darkness before finally breaking free and opening its bloom to the sun. You may feel like you're in darkness and everything around you is muddy, but keep pushing toward the Light and when the time is right, you will burst into blossom.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

carpe diem


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you need to have faith.
No matter how deep the abyss or how powerful the storms you face, everything can change for the better in a day, a moment or an instant. Hold on and know that your current circumstances will pass.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

when you did your best and you don't succeed


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that faith in yourself will see you through.
You are strong and can deal with anything that life throws at you. Take a deep breath and be filled with the knowledge that you can deal with all things.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

sweet :)

"...encircles me in his arms, holding me as if I am the air he needs to breathe."
"You are the only person I'd fly three thousand miles to see."

Loathe

The thing is, I just don't like you.
Seriously.
Loathe to be more precise.
I always wanna throw up whenever I see you.
That's it.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Mood Booster


"That someday it would lead me back to you..."
"But things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do..."

Friday, May 11, 2012

you are not alone


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are not alone.
You can be lonely even in a crowd, but do not forget - you are never alone. When there is no one in sight, look within for a friend. You will find God with you, always.

Monday, May 7, 2012

faith is what it is about


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that there is a meaning to all this.
No one can see beyond the horizon of their own lives. We are threads in the great tapestry of time. Have faith. Every stitch has a reason.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

In His time

 Allow yourself to trust that there is a larger purpose and that it may not be necessary for you to know that purpose at this time. Allow yourself to have faith that ultimately, all will be well.

Friday, May 4, 2012

call it one of the best concert ever!


No wonder thousands of people are dying to watch his concert live.
Called it professionalism, 
he even had not more than 30 secs break from 1 song to sing another song
and no false tone in all songs.

Thumbs up sir, 
coz u and ur fellas hit the stage like jagger.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

live like a winner


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that truth always wins.
Doing right is never wrong. Being honest and trustworthy is the way to live. Perhaps a slight twist of the facts might bring a short term gain. A little misrepresentation might bring some short term satisfaction. But in the end truth always wins, so live like a winner.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

most played song for these past 2 days


song that has been repeatedly played in my head over and over again.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

when you believe


On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that faith will show you the way.
When the future seems bleak and you do not know how to go on, have faith. It will shine a light in the darkness and everything will be illuminated.

Friday, April 20, 2012

stand out!

There has never been anyone exactly like you, nor will there be anyone with your gifts and abilities in the future. Stand up straight, smile and share your uniqueness with the world today.

Monday, April 9, 2012

nice tips to overcome the bad day

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can get through a bad day.
When you're having a bad day, you have a choice. You can complain and gripe and dwell on the misery, or you can let go of it and look for the good, and maybe, just maybe, even laugh about it.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

1 thing that won't change

People are difficult.

Once you thought that you found your friends.
Once you thought that they were your friends. Best friends.
Once you thought that she thought the same too.

But, you can never know what they consider you are.

You think that you have tried every thing to be a good friend.
By caring about them. 
Even by considering them as your family as well.

But, you can never know that they might leave you and hang out with the person you least wanna see them with.

That they might change to the people you hardly know.

1 thing I know for sure is that family, my family members, are the people who won't change inside.

They are the people that got, get, and will get my back. 
They are the people that have my whole trust and will always be.

That is the one thing I know for sure.

Friday, February 17, 2012

welcome home

The song that has been repeatedly played in my head since the first day I came home.

ただいまインドネシア!
 
Welcome Home You

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said "No Way"
But I laid it all down, gave everything
In my head rang the words that my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
and when you come to me
I will open my arms

Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face.

When I look at you holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son I know there'll be times
You will feel all alone
I will share with you the words my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
and when you come to me
You can bet I will open my arms

Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

Said I've been waiting for that day
Just to feel your warm embrace
Your love has shown
I will never be alone
You will welcome me home

I'll forever be
You will say to me
Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said "No Way"



Friday, February 3, 2012

today is goin to be great day! really??

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that today is going to be a great day.
Message from God
Don't start your day with a negative attitude. It's hard to understand why so many people wake up each morning feeling defeated when each day holds so much potential. The possibilities that today offers are endless, so eagerly anticipate wonderful happenings. It's easy to let blessings go by unnoticed if you're not looking. 

Thursday, February 2, 2012

change

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that if you're feeling in a slump, allow the winds of change to blow through your life.
Message from God
Life is a learning process, and changes can be wonderful opportunities for growth. Don't be afraid of change! Embrace it and grow! 

Friday, January 27, 2012

no worries!

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that today you should take a vacation from worries.
Message from God
Take this moment to conjure up a fond memory. A time in your life when you were content and happy. Dwell on that moment for a while, let those feelings of contentment permeate your soul. Today is a good day to be content, so take a vacation from your worries. 

Monday, January 23, 2012

awwww

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you matter.
Message from God
People need you. People you love and even people you have never met are depending on you. You matter to God as well. No one else can be the person you were created to be. Do not think for a minute that you are not important; - the world needs you. God needs you. 

Sunday, January 22, 2012

help n support indeed for next week's report n exams!

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's ok to ask for help.
Message from God
You are not here to do it all alone. That would be crazy! Do you know how to grow rice, spin yard or make electricity? No one does it all alone. That's why people have each other. Relying on and supporting each other is what makes the world go round. Don't be shy about asking for help. 

where is my sanctuary?

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that there will be times when you feel tossed around by the tempests of your emotions.
Message from God
When this happens, look for that still sacred space within you. Take some time to rest in that space. After a time, when you are ready, come out to face the world again. 

Friday, January 20, 2012

sampai ahir minggu ini

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that God will get you through the pain.
Message from God
Everyone experiences pain sometimes, emotional and physical. Next time it threatens to overwhelm you, take a deep breath. As you breathe slowly, picture God holding you, crying with you, giving you the strength to get through. 

Sunday, January 15, 2012

forgive and forget in practical field is the hardest part

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that there are no wrongs that God cannot make right.
Message from God
So you've been hurt or maybe you hurt someone else. God can fix it. God may be nudging you this very moment to ask for forgiveness or be willing to forgive. Trust God, listen and act. There is no wrong that God cannot make right. 

Thursday, January 12, 2012

How my problems were gradually solved one by one

Sunday, January 8th: Laptop crashed
Monday, January 9th: Sneaked into school's dorm to use computer and internet
Tuesday, January 10th: Finally the crashed laptop could be fixed :D
Thursday, January 12th: Was advised to call the bus one more time, hopelessly called, unexpectedly he said that my cellphone was there. Feel blessed coz I didn't expect this at all.

Like my mom said, be grateful to God for every bless that I have given till now.
God has created a plan that we might have never ever imagined before.
It may not as simple and easy as we want.
We may have to stumble and stumble during the journey.
But God has plan.
What the purpose of all these incidents that happened to us remains as a mystery now.
Maybe someday, we can recall these and be grateful that these things happened to us.
Coz these make us stronger and be more faithful to God.

Thank you Jesus.

exactly the answer I need

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that kindness doesn't go unanswered.
Message from God
Even though it seems like thanks and acknowledgments for good deeds are in short supply, God notices them. When you feel like giving up because gratitude eludes, remember that God is delighted in your efforts. Don't stop showing kindness because you feel unappreciated, the author of good things appreciates you very much. 


Okay here's the thing.

After all the dramas and problems that I've been through for these last 6 months, sometimes I feel that I don't get any support.
Like it's all me by myself.
Like I don't get any support.
Even no one asks how my condition is, what I will do, and so on.
Like they don't care or maybe they still think I'm the one to be blame even though she has thoughtlessly spread the wrong rumor.

I was asked to forgive everything that she has done to me.
However, to implement that into the reality needs much more efforts.
I have to acknowledge that to forgive and to forget is a damn hard thing to be done (even she never says sorry to me after all the gossips). I am a super oblivious person. But don't ask me to forget the things that she has done to me easily for the past few months.
Since I've cleared it out (I doubt that she had cleared it out first. I think she finally ought to clear it out coz in the end, people would know), I try my best to be positive-thinking.
To be kind and warm to everyone (except her).
I tried pretty much since that time.
However, I won't deny that sometimes I long for somebody's support.
In the midst of loneliness, I find this message which is exactly the answer I need.
Maybe it is really God's message.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

well said!

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's okay to say no.
Message from God
It is better to do a few things well than a bunch of things shoddily. If you are feeling overwhelmed, don't take on anything more. It's okay, and you might be giving someone else a chance to get involved. You don't have to be all things to all people; a few things to a few people will be just fine. 

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Quick Review

January 5th: lost my phone, freaked out about flight ticket on February

January 6th: finally got booked flight ticket. Thank's God for super great parents :)

heart warming enough

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are needed, you are wanted, you are loved.
Message from God
Blessings to you and your family.

Friday, January 6, 2012

cheer me up!

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that encouragement is important.
Message from God
Everybody needs to be encouraged, including you. Keep doing the best you can, you've got what it takes and you are going to make it. Remember to encourage others to pursue their own dreams. Build each other up, encouragement is important.

Monday, January 2, 2012

lazy day

On this day of your life, Fabiola, we believe God wants you to know ... that sometimes it's ok if the only thing you did today was breath.
Message from God
A day well lived does not have to include anything more than celebrating this Divine world through simple breathing.